Time is consistent but life is full of random occurences

Time is passing by so fast, it's quite hard to keep up.

I am in a one act where I have to play an 11 yr old. I have sisters around that age, so it shouldn't be hard to get ideas, what will be hard, is actually trying to convince the audience that I am indeed 11 yrs old in a leotard who developed very quickly for age body wise, but doesn't know what procrastination means.

I keep see this girl around campus. I saw here in the commons one day eating lunch with a known lesbain (wasn't by herself with her), and I found her rather attractive. Anyway, she's known as Grey Sweater Girl. I've seen her twice since then. I like her. If she's straight there may be a chance of that not really being true. I wonder if I should just randomly ask her to lunch. That would be weird. "Hey, want to have lunch with my sometime?" Yeah, lesbian, and I think you're cute/hot/attractive, make an ass of myself. Not that forward people.

There's a quote on someone's marker board in the dorm hallway that says something along the lines of: 20 years from now you won't regret what you did, but rather what you didn't do. That's so true. The 20 years don't even apply, it's just time in general.

How do you live in the moment? I feel like I do so much to waste my time.

Rehersal today at 1:00, rather sleepy, no sun for the past six days, yeah we're all getting irritable and depressed, cabin fever, too much tv and time spent in dorm room, then again it is gross outside and there's no snow, should clean Ralph's tank, I think I should go do that, Jem's birthday next week, need to get to the post office, microsoft still won't fucking work, bad music student, rehearsing should be my life, i should go practice today, failing math, failing theory, currently feeling like failing at life, want to work on the ranch this summer and go to Germany too, money is not exciting, can pay off loan and trip with ranch job, maybe have money left over, probably not much, food and lodging provided, alcohol aloud for under 21 if you work there, that would be funny, riding a horse drunk, no, not cool, messing room, feel bad for julia, toes are getting cold, pinky finger still numb, yummy green tea, not answering phone so much because of bad reception, don't take it personally, what should i do for and hour, don't want to dissapoint director and make her think she made the wrong choice, she's cute, too old for me, not gay, original cast memeber to play the role I'm in...alyssa milano, irony, find it funny. big boobs. hormones are going crazy, really, they're bad, ani difranco = good music for rainy day. Both Hands currently. First line says it's raining. Grammar sucks in this.