life part III

I kind of let Jem drop out the window after that one. I figured I had let myself be hurt too much and I just had to move on. And then Abby came along. She found out, by me telling the dressing room, that I was bisexual. Later that night, while we were in the dressing room again, there were four of us, Abby, Vivian, Abby's girlfriend, and me. Abby just happened to fart, something of which I cannot help but laugh like crazy at. It was an ice breaker. I didn't really think anything could or would happen between us, but it did.

That year we had a trip to New York with the chorus, band and drama department, and Abby was going, as was I. She was sick during that trip. I had bought a scarf, and saw that she wasn't wearing much to keep her warm, and the temperature was dropping rapidly, so I let her borrow it. We had been flirting since we had both gotten roles in Godspell, but it wasn't really anything, and I was attracted to her greatly and jealous of who she did or didn't hang out with, but that was all that happened . Our second night in New York, we went to see the Color Purple; she sat next to me and grabbed my hand. Okay, so I really didn't pay much attention to the show, I was paying more attention to what ours hands were doing to each others hands. The next night, during the Drowsy Chaperone, we sat next to each other again, and during a very lengthy blackout, she kissed me. I had been dying to do it all night, and she initiated it by kissing my neck. I turned to her and we kissed. We made out and I was floating in the air. In the Newark airport, she managed to put her hand down my pants in front of the teacher, chaperones, other students and the whole of everyone who walked by without anyone noticing. That trip she told me that she had things going on with a few other girls too, and I thought "Well, shit there I go."

But it was not so. We kept in close touch over the phone. We kissed more, we flirted more: so much so that Ms. Brooks had to tell us not to be so touchy feely during rehearsals. She said it with an irrepressible grin on her face and I found that I couldn't keep from grinning either.